Why Am I Blue?

(This Post was originally written on 11/27/17)

I don’t know if it’s because of my upcoming surgery or the after-the-holiday-blues, but I have been just like the weather today, all over the place. The temperature started out in the low 50’s and it has warmed up to the upper 70’s.  Unsure of what to do with myself but knowing I should be doing something, I abandoned thoughts of writing this morning after hours of reading and researching got me nowhere. I just didn’t feel it today and sometimes I guess that’s the way it goes

I did read all of my paperwork and pre-op instructions over coffee this morning.

As usual, I did a load of laundry, cleaned the kitchen and puzzled over what we might eat for dinner, then this afternoon I thought about taking a walk and ended up raking leaves and acorns instead…even though the wind has been ridiculous all day! I can’t stand looking at my newly decorated front porch with leaves all over it, so I tried to clean it and the beds up somewhat. My neighbors must have thought me a total idiot, fighting the wind and re-raking and sweeping over and over until I had a trashcan full of the fruits of my labor. I’m sure if I looked out there right now, the porch would be covered in leaves all over again!

One of my piles of leaves and acorns

Afterwards, hot and sweaty, I came in and was finally able to write a few words of a short story for The First Line.  That was not my initial thought for a writing job this morning, I wanted to find a job that paid sooner but that was not how things worked out. Mainly because I didn’t much feel like writing and was totally uninspired.  You can’t force it you know. Sometimes you just have towalk away, do something else and collect your creative thoughts or wait until you have the energy to make it happen.

I’m also a little bummed because even though I know that Christmas is about being together with your family, I like to buy presents for everyone and we made the decision this year to just go out to dinner or something instead.  Add to that a bit of family drama that’s going on and you understand the possible reason for my Monday blues. Why I didn’t even put on make-up today! I’m so glad you weren’t counting on me to provide your motivation for today, I would have failed you miserably.  It doesn’t help my mood to be constantly hit with a bazillion cyber-Monday emails since I’m thinking why bother? We aren’t buying presents anyway. I guess we will be buying a couple here and there but you know what I mean.

My ankle is still sore from rolling it the other day, so I guess it’s a good thing I didn’t walk anyway. Hopefully, I worked off my lunch raking leaves in the yard, I sure expended the little bit of energy I mustered up for the task. I just hate that I put on a few pounds over the holiday, but I’m sure I’m not the only one 😉

Ok, rant over, I hope you all had a better, more productive (if that’s what you wanted) Monday than me. Have a nice evening and hopefully I won’t blow away while sitting out on the patio. 🙂

What Daylight Savings Time?

Ok, where is that extra hour of sleep I was supposed to get? I still have not slept past 6am two mornings in a row! This morning I was up at 5:30 and poor Dave had not slept since 2:30!! Of course, that’s because the poor man cannot stop worrying. I guess we both have problems letting go and letting God sometimes.

I did a grueling assignment this morning that may not have been so bad had I not done better research and stopped putting pressure on myself to get so many other things done. It was supposed to be between 400-1000 words and I did about half of that, I’m sure there is a revision in my future! Oh well, live and learn.

Mondays are full of writing, reading, looking for paid work, housework, cooking and errands that need to be run. Whew! When will I find time to tend to my toenails and go get my new wig trimmed? I really want to so I can get Dave to take a nice picture of me in it and I can post it for y’all. I got this one from Paula Young and I love it because it is a feather light and the style is just perfect for me. Plus, it’s soooo soft!!

I returned the favor of Dave cooking us a lovely dinner last night by making his egg cups and what I hope turns out to be a delicious banana bread. I subbed part of the flour it called for with ground oat flour (made by me thanks to my Ninja)! I took the recipe from Pinterest but she took it from Simply Recipes.  This is the easiest banana bread I’ve ever made, you can vary the amount of sugar, play with your flours and add mix-ins like nuts or chocolate chips. My man likes plain old banana bread so the only add in was some of the pecans my Dad gave me. Y’all enjoy!

Are y’all sick of my egg cup pics yet?
MMMM! Hopefully, it tastes as good as it smells!

Notice how I always use parchment paper or  Silpat when making baked goods so I have less to clean up? I’m smart like that, lol!

 

Maybe later, if I get everything done that I feel needs to be ;), I can catch a cat nap!